I fucking hate being told what to do. It kills my mood, stifles my creativity and just makes me want to nuke the universe; and that doesn’t make me a bad person. We were not created just to follow rules and of course we weren’t because that would make us just instruments for executing tasks or, dare I say, tools. When I don’t have any creative input or autonomy when executing a task it feels like a mindless, brainless, routine boring waste of time, waste of life, and just ughck… I love feeling alive, like everything is new and exciting and I love feeling powerful, like whatever I want to make happen I can really do it, not just hope or wish that I could. When I pull my head out of the dirt, I know that I can make things that last and come up with new, creative ideas. It’s just that sometimes it’s hard to pull my head out of the dirt. Now, I realize how precious life is and even more relevant is the fact that it is so preciously rare & finite that it forces me to want to push past all my norms, push past limits & really put in the work to build a better life for myself, my whole family & to a larger degree, as many people as I can touch in my lifetime. “Being told what to do” “following instructions” and all that kind of shit is for the worms. I realized that I’ve been lied to by all types of people and power structures. The fact of the matter is: There is no pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, they don’t have our best interest at heart, and they aren’t trying to protect us. They’re trying to control us. The only question after understanding this is, “what are we going to do now?” I, personally, am disappointed and pissed off that I didn’t see it sooner but the ball is in my court & the power is in my hands.
Don’t be tied down by fears, expectations, or distractions.
